Chrissy Teigen May Be Outspoken, But Sharing Her Postpartum Struggle Is Incredibly Brave
To say that Chrissy Teigen is outspoken would be a bit of an understatement. The model-turned-presenter-turned-cookbook author-turned mother has opened up about almost everything under the sun on her social media account.
Cultural appropriation? She’s got a few thoughts. IVF and fertility struggles? Oh, you bet she’s got an opinion. Trump? Let’s just say she’s already called the POTUS an Uber…
But the beautiful 31-year-old wife to John Legend and mom to Luna, who seemingly has everything, has one more thing she wants to tell you about.
In an essay for Glamour Magazine, Chrissy talks for the first time about her struggles with PPD. The Lip-Sync Battle host, who gave birth to daughter Luna Simone Stephens last April, described her painful transition back to work after maternity leave.
“I was different than before. Getting out of bed to get to set on time was painful. My lower back throbbed; my shoulders—even my wrists—hurt. I didn’t have an appetite. I would go two days without a bite of food, and you know how big of a deal food is for me”.
Despite a supportive team and a warm welcome back to her job on Lip-Sync Battle, Chrissy knew something was up. Blaming her low mood on home renovations, stress, tiredness, or perhaps her growing out of the role of goofy host and into motherhood, she went through a period of confusion and denial.
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“My eyes would well up and I would burst into tears. My makeup artist would pat them dry and give me a few minutes.
“I couldn’t figure out why I was so unhappy.”
Then, when she wasn’t working, Chrissy isolated herself and refused to leave the house for days at a time.
“Most days were spent on the exact same spot on the couch and rarely would I muster up the energy to make it upstairs for bed. John would sleep on the couch with me, sometimes four nights in a row. I started keeping robes and comfy clothes in the pantry so I wouldn’t have to go upstairs when John went to work. There was a lot of spontaneous crying.”
Eventually, Chrissy went to see a GP for a physical in December and was diagnosed with Postpartum depression.
“I was so tired of being in pain. Of sleeping on the couch. Of waking up throughout the night. Of throwing up. Of taking things out on the wrong people. Of not enjoying life. Of not seeing my friends. Of not having the energy to take my baby for a stroll,” she writes.
“My doctor pulled out a book and started listing symptoms. And I was like, ‘Yep, yep, yep.’ I got my diagnosis: postpartum depression and anxiety.”
Chrissy admitted that it was exactly her famed candidness that made her keep her PPD a secret for many months.
“I hesitated to even talk about this, as every becomes such a “thing.” During pregnancy, what I thought were casual comments about IVF turned into headlines about me choosing the sex of my daughter. And I can already imagine what will be said about me after this admission. But it’s such a major part of my life and so, so many other women’s lives.”
Chrissy's refreshingly honest, frequently hilarious and often heartbreaking opinions have always endeared us to the social media star. We have no doubt that her courageous decision to talk openly about Postpartum will be similarly well-received—and here's hoping it helps other mothers experiencing PPD feel like they are not alone.